Everything has changed

All I knew this morning when I woke is I know something now, know something now I didn't before. And all I've seen since eighteen hours ago is green eyes and freckles and your smile in the back of my mind making me feel like I just wanna know you better.

And all my walls stood tall painted blue. And I'll take them down, take them down and open up the door for you. And all I feel in my stomach is butterflies, the beautiful kind. Making up for lost time. Taking flight, making me feel right like I just wanna know you better.

Come back and tell me why I'm feeling like I've missed you all this time. And meet me there tonight. And let me know that it's not all in my mind.

All I know is we said, "Hello." And your eyes look like coming home. All I know is a simple name. Everything has changed. All I know is you held the door. You'll be mine and I'll be yours. All I know since yesterday is everything has changed.

All I know is we said, "Hello.". So dust off your highest hopes. All I know is pouring rain and everything has changed. All I know is a new found grace. All my days I'll know your face. All I know since yesterday is everything has changed.

Well

Do you ever wish you could unmeet someone?
Or maybe could turn back time..

me neither

Mess

My life is a mess.
I really think relationships are messy. Sakitkan perasaan semuaorang.
The truth is I'm afraid. Because I have no luck in this. I don't wanna get hurt.
And basically I don't really want anyone else right now. Because I love him. Still. If I can't have him back, then I don't think I want to be with anyone else. At least biarlah sementara. He's everything i have. The kind of guy I wanna end up with. Actually kind of guy semua perempuan nak. That's why i have to compete dalam tak sedar. I know it's my fault. I mistreated him. But I'm willing to fix everything. Be the girl he always wanted me to be. As usual, orang mana appreciate apa dia ada. Dah hilang baru sedar.
I don't really have feelings for anyone else. Ada pun maybe sekadar "suka". Maybe it's my fault. He's cute. He's funny. He tried so hard. But it's just me. It's not that I'm not ready. The truth is, I don't want. Tak nak ada apa apa dengan sapa sapa. Maybe he deserves someone yang umur lebih kurang dia. I can't tolerate younger boys. Even dia matured macam mana pun. Just, bukan dia. Bukan sapa sapa.
I know, I had fun for the past few days. Thank you so much. But bila keluar unwanted question, rasa insecure gila. And I know I have to avoid you. So that you understand, that it's not you. It's me. And believe me, it's not that I'm not ready. I don't want. I don't want any relationship with anyone else right now. And it's not I'm afraid to try. I don't want to. So you should understand. And I'm sorry. Truly sorry.

xx